['-...Leaving this place, for my dreams...-']

`'`Saturday, September 01, 2007`'`

World's BEST Gong Gong...

Happy Birthday Gong.. hope ur wish came true..

my last picture taken with him.

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['-samuel-'] ;8:35 PM;

`'`Thursday, August 16, 2007`'`

A Different Morning...
This morning is like no other ordinary morning. Yes, I did wake up in a small cube that I have been calling home for the pass 6 months.. wow.. 6 months! That is long.. yes, I still shiver in the morning from the winter’s cold morning. BUT there is just something really different about it. Until now, 530pm, I feel different! As I lay in my toasty bed under my comforter that has been ever so useful in winters, I sniff the air through my horrendous flu and it smells different too! I really just can’t put my finger on to it. When 8am hit, my ipod started playin rock music, it works really well to get me up. The whole different ambience along with the hypnotic thudding from the bass, sent me back to the past when I was in my primary school life. Immediately remembering the times when the gang and I played basketball, waiting for our drivers outside school, all the ‘I hate girls’ talk, all the chasing around in the field.. a sigh of relief, ‘freedom’ , ‘joyous’ , ‘carefree’ and ‘tranquility’ the feelings I have when I was thinkin about it. This is exactly what I need right now. Arh… finally in years! I have not woke up on the right side of bed, I finally have. And it feels great!
Went to uni and I’m this different upbeat guy with a flu. Haha. Feeling so cheerful, I just want everyone around to be HAPPY!! J I bought my friend a lunch cause she had to sit out in the cold doing some duty. Couldn’t let her starve now can i. haha. I love this feeling! But what is it?!??! Its amazing!??! I’m like a totally different person.. amidst the flu, I suddenly smelled freshly cut grass, ohhh.. I suddenly feel as if I’m out in the wide open fields in the mountains.
This is not any random bullshit I’m typing.. this IS what I’m feeling.. and yet, I still can’t put my finger on what this feeling really is.. is it the feeling of being sick? Cause it’s been a long time since I had flu. Haha.. I dunno, dun really care.. I hope it stays..

CHEERS EVERYONE!!!!
Sam.

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['-samuel-'] ;12:20 AM;

`'`Wednesday, August 15, 2007`'`

The Straying Mind…
There’s so many things going on in the brain of mine. Lets randomly name a few,
1) My baby sis is leaving for India soon and I wont be able to see her for years! Miss you boony!!
2) Getting my darling sis an ipod nano! Hahha.. 2nd ipod I bought for other ppl.
3) Miss my gong gong again!!
4) My management assignment!! 3 x 500 words essays!! When am I goin to start doing it??
5) My chicken that was not cooked is not OVERcooked because im typing this.. sigh..
6) Wanna do something romantic. But with who?!??!
7) Need more alcohol!!
8) Die STEVE CARNIE!!!!!!!!!
9) How to play hold’em? Poker night is this Saturday!
10) San stop hurting yourself, stop eating ice-cream and sleep well!! Pigo!!
11) Who, when and where to move out to for next year..
12) What to do with my damn flu
13) Ppl I hurt, im sorry…
14) How to make the world a beta place..
15) How to make myself a beta person..
16) Brad’s ‘tribute to Steve Irwin’ video. Haha.. tats super random.
Those are the things that are rushing through my mind. I’m just plucking it out as I went. Hafta stop thinkin before head explodes!!

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['-samuel-'] ;3:02 AM;

`'`Wednesday, July 25, 2007`'`

THE MOTH…
‘hey sam! Look!!’ the few of us in Keith’s (my apartment mate) room stared at the moth that flew gracefully into the room. A moment of silence from everyone staring at it… deep down, everyone knew I needed it and they knew what it meant. Never has a moth flew into our apartments before cause our windows have nets. This is no ordinary moth…(a symbolic sign)

Exactly 8 days ago when the same gang was I my room chatting, while I was making milo for everyone one of them on the cold winter’s day, I suddenly felt a chill and suddenly missed my home so much! Not just that… missed my grandpa!!

The next day, 7 days before the moth flew in,I received a call from my mom in the afternoon while I was doing my work. A low and solemn voice came from my mom, ‘son , how are you doing?’ immediately I knew something isn’t right. Then my mom told me ‘ gong passed away last night!!’ an impulse shot through my spine causing giving me cold sweat and heart beated faster! And in disbelief and shock, I didn’t know what to say. A hard gulp and I asked if she’s serious, hoping for the thinnest of hope that she is. But it was not to be. She consoled me that he went peacefully in his sleep and he loved us all and he had a good life.. tears started rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably. In my mind, I’m telling myself, HOW CAN THIS BE!!! I don’t wanna believe it!! Sigh.. all the memories of him flashed through my mind..times when he carried my sis n I up and let us touch the coconut tree, the time I went to China with him.. I miss him so much!!

I was so desperate to go back but I couldn’t cause it’s too costly and I had to continue with my studies.. it made everything far worse for me. Haih. I thank zoe for being there for me for days. I spent 2 days and nights crying!! Ego aside, I really cried so much!! Till I thought to myself, he would want us to be happy and strong. That’s him.. I know him. And in a few deep breaths, I sucked it all in and stopped. I prayed that the Gods will take good care of him. Haha.. in fact, I think that he is the one taking care of the Gods. Haha.. knowing him.

Gong, you’ll forever remain in our hearts!! We love you always!! You made us who we are today!! You’re a highly respected man, caring, steadfast, disciplined, oh so generous and last but not least stubborn! Haha.. yes stubborn.. I used to hate it. But I will do anything to have some of that stubbornness from him..he lives his life in his own principles and that is what made him so special and irreplaceable!! At the age of 82, body solid from years of living he can still ran about, taking the dogs out for walks everyday, jog to neighbour’s house to greet them, grocery shopping.. he IS a survivor.. I’m the one that is suppose to take care of him, but often it’s the other way round.

I left the room and the moth followed me back into my room, I talked to it as if I’m talkin to him in my heart. He stayed and made sure I was ok before leaving a few days later without a trace.
~Forever Love~

*update pics later or never*

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['-samuel-'] ;9:05 AM;

`'`Tuesday, January 23, 2007`'`

Cooking Lesson...
number one.. how to cook a crab..
i promised you this clip.. hehe.. enjoy!! watch at your own risk!! :)

*only one life was taken in this filming.. more behind the scenes.. :P *

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['-samuel-'] ;8:50 AM;

OLD MAN AT WORK..
my uncle started drawing again because it was his new year's resolution.. and he started using water colour and czme up with this master piece of his dad, my grandpa.. entitled 'Old Man At Work'..
It's awesome!! its so life like.. have a look..

* i hugged him for the first time that day and he is so nice to hug!! will miss him so much when im abroad.. stay healthy!! MUAH!! love you *

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['-samuel-'] ;8:45 AM;

`'`Sunday, January 07, 2007`'`

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM n DAD!!

Last week was my parent's 25th year anniversary!! and my dad bought my mom a bouquet of red roses.. 25 of them!! so sweet of him!! haha..

* lovin my cam!! great macro!! haha.. how BEAUTIFUL is that!! *
~ FOREVER LOVE! ~

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['-samuel-'] ;9:32 AM;

GHOST HUNTING!! a WwIIiLlllLdDddD night!!
Few days back a colleague of mine from work asked me if i wanted to go to hospital out of the blue n i was like.. Huh?? what? haha.. then he explained that his friends also from work found a haunted hospital in cheras where they say that the doors inside closes n opens by ITSELF!! haha.. how cool is tat?? so of course i said yes n i dragged Gein into it as well. haha.. so after my shift that ends at 12, i went bk home to get flashlights and then met up with the gang before setting off, when we go there, our hearts started thumping real hard thinkin what the heck is goin to happen and all but there was a guard there that night and so we couldn't get it.. then the gang decided to highland towers in ampang where a Condo came down during a landslide killing 50+ ppl, n i was kinda releived bout goin there cz i was having second thoughts bout goin to the hospital BUT then.. they decided to give the hospital another try.. haha.. i knew how we are goin in. thats by sneaking into the compund.. how?? i wasn't sure yet till we walked up to a foresty area and we started trekking through mud n bushes and trees.. really cool.. to be jungle trekking at 2.00 am in the morning!!!

*thats all we could see at night.. haha.. thats Gein with the finger*
then we sneaked pass the guards and we were still pushing our way through the forest and we hit a dead end so we had to go back and find another way.. then all of a sudden from a distance we flashlight turned on and there was a guard shouting at us, the group of 12 just froze! we dinno wat to do then one of my fwens starting making a run for it.. so the whole group did too. haha.. we ran all the way bk to where we came in from as fast as we could!! we kept laughing n at the same time scared shitless and we got to our car finally and we calmed down..we took our time gettin into our car and leave.. and while we were leaving, a police car came in and shone the search lights at us, and we jz sped off like JUVENILES!!! OMG!! iv never felt this Juve before!! haha.. was so fun!! the adrenaline pumping...really hard to describe...
the gang wasn't satisfied.. AT ALL!! so we went to ampang in search of the condo.. when we got there, it was SsSSOOooO earie man.. looking at the remaining two condos from far, it looks so

*looks a hell lot like BLOOD!!! i wonder...*

*we were walking up in the condo.. *
DARK and DeaD!!! my hair stood up IMMEDIATELY!! sending a chill down my spine i held it together and we tresspassed and went INTO the condos, we went up a few floors but there wasn't anything interesting up there so we left eventually..
haha.. my day was over, i had to go bk n get some sleep cz i was working in the morning, it was already around 4.. sigh.. but they went to a house in puchong where it is ALSO haunted, haha. they scared the living daylights out of my fwen.. hehe.. they messed around with him. haha.. poor dude.. well, the highlight of the evening for me will hafta be the running away from the authorities.. hehe.. memorable event NUMBER 1!!

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['-samuel-'] ;9:04 AM;

`'`Tuesday, January 02, 2007`'`

Monday, January 02, 2006

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS UNVEILED
the coming of a new year brings new hope and aim in life.. these are my new years resolutions.

1. study hard and get into Melbourne Uni
2. do not get into any more relationships
3. forgive and forget. move on!!
4. don't play so much games
5. drink more!
6. spend time with the one i love by the beach looking at stars
7. drive faster but safer
8. get into SUKMA and at least win something back!!
9. learn to cook
10. don't think so much

hehe. ok. il let u noe how it goes at the end of the year la if i still blog. hehe... c u!! muah!!

over and out,
samuel
Fill Me Up Wif Ur Love
3:31 PM

*my 2006 new years resolution..*
now now, lets see what have i and have i not fulfilled.. hehe..
number 1, I MADE IT!!!! my hard work paid off..
number 2, dun believe i have.. hehe.. wow.. i shocked myself.. hehe..
number 3, i forgave n definitely forgotten.. hehe..
number 4, i've been playing more than i normally do mainly due to my unbareable 6 months holiday.. haha..
number 5, i din specify this clearly, drink more wat?? mineral water?? YES , alcohol?? a YES as well.. hehe..
number 6, just not able to. darn.. haha.. will compromise..
number 7, always do.. hehe..
number 8, i did get into SUKMA, but didn't win anything.. but i did win third in the Junior Circuit recently.. so does that count?? haha..
number 9, i have.. not the gourmet kind that i wish it was but good enough to survive in Australia gua.. haha..
number 10, cis.. i stopped thinkin long ago.. haha... errrrr....

NEW YEAR (2007) RESOLUTIONS
1. Get a scholarship in Melbourne Uni.. ease my parent's burden..
2. Go backpacking in Australia!! here i come mate~
3. Consume less alcohol and less shisha..
4. Do at least 5 unforgetable things..
5. Change a person's life for the better..
6. Gain weight.. (muscle mass!!)
7. Save the environment, HELP MOTHER NATURE!!
8. Do NOT get into more relationships esp complicated kinds! haha.
9. Stay in touch with my BEST friends!
10. LOVE n BE LOVED...

hope i am able to fulfil this year's resolutions.. :) will let u noe IF i do or not by the end of the year n IF i still blog.. hehe.. CHEERS EVERYONE!! muah!

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['-samuel-'] ;10:39 AM;