THE MOTH…
‘hey sam! Look!!’ the few of us in Keith’s (my apartment mate) room stared at the moth that flew gracefully into the room. A moment of silence from everyone staring at it… deep down, everyone knew I needed it and they knew what it meant. Never has a moth flew into our apartments before cause our windows have nets. This is no ordinary moth…(a symbolic sign)
Exactly 8 days ago when the same gang was I my room chatting, while I was making milo for everyone one of them on the cold winter’s day, I suddenly felt a chill and suddenly missed my home so much! Not just that… missed my grandpa!!
The next day, 7 days before the moth flew in,I received a call from my mom in the afternoon while I was doing my work. A low and solemn voice came from my mom, ‘son , how are you doing?’ immediately I knew something isn’t right. Then my mom told me ‘ gong passed away last night!!’ an impulse shot through my spine causing giving me cold sweat and heart beated faster! And in disbelief and shock, I didn’t know what to say. A hard gulp and I asked if she’s serious, hoping for the thinnest of hope that she is. But it was not to be. She consoled me that he went peacefully in his sleep and he loved us all and he had a good life.. tears started rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably. In my mind, I’m telling myself, HOW CAN THIS BE!!! I don’t wanna believe it!! Sigh.. all the memories of him flashed through my mind..times when he carried my sis n I up and let us touch the coconut tree, the time I went to China with him.. I miss him so much!!
I was so desperate to go back but I couldn’t cause it’s too costly and I had to continue with my studies.. it made everything far worse for me. Haih. I thank zoe for being there for me for days. I spent 2 days and nights crying!! Ego aside, I really cried so much!! Till I thought to myself, he would want us to be happy and strong. That’s him.. I know him. And in a few deep breaths, I sucked it all in and stopped. I prayed that the Gods will take good care of him. Haha.. in fact, I think that he is the one taking care of the Gods. Haha.. knowing him.
Gong, you’ll forever remain in our hearts!! We love you always!! You made us who we are today!! You’re a highly respected man, caring, steadfast, disciplined, oh so generous and last but not least stubborn! Haha.. yes stubborn.. I used to hate it. But I will do anything to have some of that stubbornness from him..he lives his life in his own principles and that is what made him so special and irreplaceable!! At the age of 82, body solid from years of living he can still ran about, taking the dogs out for walks everyday, jog to neighbour’s house to greet them, grocery shopping.. he IS a survivor.. I’m the one that is suppose to take care of him, but often it’s the other way round.
I left the room and the moth followed me back into my room, I talked to it as if I’m talkin to him in my heart. He stayed and made sure I was ok before leaving a few days later without a trace.
~Forever Love~
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